Friendship and God: A Two Way Street

I have had friends and lost them. I agonize over losing them. Sometimes it's just that we used to see each other all the time and one of us moved away and things just stopped revitalizing the relationship. Sometimes some awful thing happened and we just couldn't mend things. Sometimes it was a natural drift as we got interested in different ways of living. 

In the last few years I have ended friendships kind of on purpose. There have been relationships where I am the one to always call, make plans, follow up, keep in touch, make it happen. And I'm tired of having those one way friendships. So I experiment. I stop calling. I'm not upset or anything, I just want to see what happens if I don't initiate. Some friendships die when I do that. I really don't feel good about when that happens. But lately I've been letting them go. 

I am so glad God doesn't do that with me. All the times that the Divine has shown up and I didn't call back, or didn't pay attention, or didn't go looking to have adventures together, or just go out for dinner together. I'm so glad God is a much better friend than I am.