Where is the Divine in the Terror of Change?

The video above is of 5 month old Ben, as he is trying a new food. As he is suffering in disgust, we are all laughing hysterically. Do you think the Divine laughs at us in our moments like this?

I have had a dream for my lifestyle for quite a while. I would like to live in a neighborhood with really fun people who like to be together and seek positive adventure. A year or so ago I found just that neighborhood in Lewes, DE in a development with a big club house, dog parks, tennis courts, gorgeous pools, and playgrounds. This was for me! So I waited for just the right location and put my deposit down on a site. The house is being built now. I saw construction today and I actually felt emotional seeing it.  I waved to the workers indicating that it was my house and they smiled and waved back. Then terror struck me. What was I thinking building a house, moving at least part time from Maryland and the comfort of my home?  What if I moved here and it was awful?

Sometimes I have big ideas and high hopes, but when the moment of truth comes up, fear strikes at my heart. Years ago I planned a really great vacation piloting a canal boat in England and Wales. I was excited, until I was actually on the boat and the dockmaster gave instructions as to how to pilot the boat, turn it around, negotiate hand cranked locks, dock it, and operate the equipment on board. I freaked out, and all I wanted to do was get out of there and cancel the trip. It was too late. So away I went. It turned out to be a fabulous trip, full of adventure, memories, fun, and certainly more interesting than some standard hotel room. 

Where is the Divine in those moments of doubt, terror, change, and desire to undo what you thought you wanted to do? I think God is in the moment you have with that first idea that something is a good idea. God is there, connecting so happily with you, when you have that sigh of relief when it all turns out okay. But where is God when the moment of doubt hits? When all you know is that you don't want the feelings that you are having and you want to back out? Does the Spirit which passes through all things hold you gently while you suffer? Is the experience just the reaction to the unknown change about to happen? Or is the dread so strong that this a signal to really stop the wheels of progress and pull out of the plan? How can you tell?